I’m so tired even my skin feels tired! It’s the end of the year where we start to wind up some things and at the same time amp up in other areas. It’s the end of the year and it feels like everything is going a little crazy and haywire. Are you feeling it too?
Look, I lead a pretty blessed life and absolutely love my blog lifestyle so don’t feel sorry for me…but life catches up with us all! When I get ‘this’ tired I also get worried.
I get worried about what my body is ‘really’ telling me. When our bodies are tired and aches n pains set in then we need to listen.
Today I’ve spent the whole day on the couch, my mind and body are spent and I’m struggling with online and offline bullying. I gotta say, it’s been a crappy day and I started to stew in that crappiness so figured I needed to write. You know, get it out, get my thoughts straight and find the things that ‘do’ make it all worthwhile.
I’ve had a fabulous year, soooo much to learn and take in and a few changes of direction. I headed off to a blogging conference to learn more and I’ve made some wonderful friends in bloggy land. My blog has grown, I’m working with fabulous clients, I started a newsletter and kinda made friends with technology. Tick, tick, tickety tick 🙂
Not everything is perfect in bloggy land though. A few trolls felt the need to enlighten me, telling me when I was fat (all the time, der!), when they didn’t like my style and then there was the night one said she would come around and cut off my ‘ugly tits’.
Uhuh, I know! There were a few shit comments and some idle gossip by others, then there’s those who are more about exclusion rather than inclusion…boy do those people have some life lessons to learn. To those people I say ‘fuck directly off’. Yep, you heard me…and don’t let the door hit you on the arse!
You see, if I’m not hurting you, if you haven’t seen it or heard it first hand then just go about your ‘own’ life and leave me the heck alone. Right, now I’m done with the ugly let’s get onto the good 🙂
I’ve had a massive year, there’s been surgeries and health milestones. My boobs are finished AND I have nipples! I’m now two years post cancer treatment, which means two years ‘clear’. BAM! Take ‘that’ cancer!
My boys are growing up. There’s girlfriends and cars and more hugs. Oh the hugs aren’t just for the girlfriends, the boys are maturing and they’ve come full circle. Yup, there’s no more grunting but ‘actual’ words, smiles and hugs (for me). Me likey
I’ve collaborated with wonderful people over the past 12 months, people who are accepting and grateful. I’ve designed a tee and a silver cuff, I’ve even done public speaking and a workshop. All of these added joy and personal growth to my work life.
When brands approach and want to collaborate, I want it to ‘feel’ good and I want it to benefit my community (that’s you), so if all my criteria is ticked off then I say ‘yes’ and wonderful things happen. Truly awesome things.
I’ve nurtured a few online communities, one on Styling Curvy (on Facebook and Instagram) and the closed group in Body Loving Babes. These communities continue to grow, not just in numbers but in confidence, and most definitely in the ‘style stakes’. You guys are my happy place, being able to merge business with pleasure is the holy grail in work life and I’m blessed to have that.
While there’s those who just don’t ‘get’ me and want me to fade out there’s all of you who accept me just the way I am (thanks for that). Some of you visit and read for ‘style tips’, others for ‘body image confidence’ or to travel the ‘cancer journey’ with me. You’re all part of the Styling Curvy community for different reasons but what I love is that you all show tolerance, acceptance, care and you have a bloody good sense of humour.
I don’t take myself too seriously, of course I don’t know everything but what I do know I’m more than happy to share with all of you. I’m a sharer and don’t censor my life for social media. I’ve written about life, death, love, sexual abuse, cancer, family, food, flowers, friends, childhood, parenthood and so much more.
The best bit? Well, the best bit is you all allow me to pop up in your lives every single day and be a part of your world. I get to write what I want, when I want…even with colourful words.
Thanks for that ?
How’s your year been?