Today I was driving home from picking up some flowers and emotion washed over me. I had to get it down. Today I had a thought, that turned into an ‘Aha’ moment, ‘I wasn’t ready’.
The day I met my now husband I wasn’t ready. I had just moved to a new place, was unpacking and setting up the unit when the door bell chimed. Standing at the door I didn’t see my flat mate, instead it was her boyfriend and another dude.
The dude made my heart flutter, I was meant to be there to forget about boys. I wasn’t ready. Five months later we were engaged.
At twenty three I was planning a wedding when I peed on a stick and smiled at my belly. I wasn’t ready.
There’s lots of moments in my life I wasn’t ready for…
Leaving home at seventeen.
Taking on a full time job while juggling two kids at school.
Raising two kids with no external support.
Balancing a budget.
My kids getting cars.
The list goes on, but of course I did it all.
Today I was lost in thought, going over how different my little family unit is this year. My babies are men, with partners.
These days they only give so much, the rest (the very special bits) are now for their partners. It’s time for me to step to one side (graciously) and let them grow and live their own lives. They are ready.
Of course they are ready.
I thought I wasn’t ready, then I realized all the moments in time leading up to this moment, they have made me ready.
I was always ready.
Life is about jumping in, letting go , saying YES…and no. Sometimes there’s no planning in life, you just gotta ride the rollercoaster and hang on tight. M
There’s no ‘ready’, more like ‘ready or not, here I come’.
Had any ‘Aha’ moments lately?
til next time,